Visioning

There are two crucial steps to making change in your life - first, having a vision of what you want to make happen. Second, taking steps to make that happen. Okay, 3 things - the third being to KEEP TAKING THE STEPS! So often we work so hard, only to stop just before the finish line. I know I'm not the only one to "self-sabotage" myself this way. So what can be done about it?

First, stop making excuses. You are not responsible for everyone around you, and if something is genuinely important to you, you WILL find time to sit with yourself to get clear about it. This process can be combined with other things - for example, I really want to exercise more - and I find I do some of my best thinking when I'm walking.

One of the things I find extremely useful is to have someone to hold me accountable. Like with exercise - I am far more likely to actually do it on a regular basis if I know I have to meet someone, and far more likely to sleep in or get distracted by something else and blow it off if I am on my own.

It is also critical to not make promises that you do not intend to keep - especially to yourself. Most of us will kill ourselves to keep our word to someone else, but not think twice about keeping it to ourselves - however, not keeping our word to ourselves not only hurts us, but undermines our authenticity and reliability to others. It's like the adage: "If you can't love yourself, no one else can." ~ Therefore, "If you can't trust yourself, no one else can."

So you sit and create your vision - you know what your goal is. For example, mine at this time is to find a full-time job in Theater, 1) that I will enjoy and will challenge me and let me develop my design skills, and 2) preferably in a climate that I want to live in (go go Vegas or Los Angles!).

Along with knowing the goal, you have to be IN the vision. Not seeing yourself like in a movie, but actually IN the picture - looking through your eyes, feeling with your senses. Having been to both of these cities this year, it is really easy for me to BE there (I think my body still is - when it gets under 70 degrees here, I'm freezing!).

Next, is taking steps to achieve the goals. Every chance I get, I remind myself that where I am is where I am for now, and that it is a matter of time before I find where I am supposed to be (or will achieve my goal weight, etc etc). In other words, all you are is not where you are, unless you tell yourself it is.

Then, keep taking the steps - this is where I see most people (myself included) lose it. You start feeling good, you let things slide, or you think it is never going to happen. The fact of the matter is, things take time to gestate - they rarely happen overnight. As one of my mentors, James Arthur Ray puts it: "Would you walk up to a woman who is 4 months pregnant and say 'Well? Where is it? Where's the baby? Is this REALLY going to happen?' " Of course not! It is the same for everything else in life - it takes a particular amount of time to come into existence. Some things we just know how long they take (like babies), and others we don't (like finding the right job).

This is where having someone to "hold your feet to the fire" and keep you accountable comes in. Having to check in with someone makes you more likely to take consistent action. This can be in the form of a friend (like an exercise buddy), or in a more formal role like a therapist or Life Coach.

This is what started this whole vein/rant about visioning and accountability - yesterday I had an exploratory session with a Coach, to see if we want to work together. I like his style - he is honest, direct, doesn't pull punches, calls me on my stuff, points out where I am getting in my own way and not being accountable for something, and cheers when I finally get it. As he puts it, he is a "loving witness" - and sometimes truly loving includes "tough" love.

Working with this Coach is going to be hard, challenging, probably painful at times (I've already cried 3 times when talking to him), but powerful, transformative and wonderful. He sees my patterns, and holds me to the focus, and doesn't let me off the hook - in other words, he holds me accountable to what I want and need. He is a good match for me in this way, and it is both scary and wonderful to find someone who is your match. I am both terrified and excited to begin this part of my journey, and grateful to know that it won't be alone.

It is scary to step out into uncharted territory. We become very attached to our limitations and where we are - even if it isn't where we want to be - because it is familiar.

There is comfort in the familiar - but in order to get where you want to be, you MUST be willing to release where you are (ie, I'll let go of this doorknob in MA when I arrive in Los Angeles - it just won't work that way).

I'm releasing, and taking a leap...