Faith pays off...

They say that every 7 years, every cell in your body has been replaced - which essentially means, I suppose, that you are a whole new person every 7 years. So I find that rather appropriate, as I am now committed to the next step of my journey.

Those of you who have been following this blog from the beginning know what a year of transition this has been - and mostly one of exploring being in limbo. I have found that when you really allow yourself to be where you are, you really get to know yourself, and learn what you want.

I was willing to take the Electrics job at CalArts because it was a) stable, b) would give me some great experience. In other words, to be a stepping-stone rather than what I really wanted. I was willing to take it because I thought it would help me get to where I want to be, but knew I wouldn't want to be there long-term.

Then I had a tour dropped in my lap a couple days ago. It made me face the fact that the CalArts job isn't what I really want, but is merely a stepping stone. So when they told me they decided to go with someone else, it was actually a bit of a relief. Because I knew in my core that I really wanted the tour, as it is doing what I really love to do - being a Production Stage Manager. And it will have opportunities to travel, do different things, and I may even get to be a lighting designer for them. Woo hoo!!! :D

Following on the decision to take the tour, I have made the very difficult decision to give up my apartment. I know I will be on the road at least 5 months (from Jan 8 - early May), with a strong likelihood of even longer - I'm pretty confident I'll get a seasonal summer job somewhere, if not another tour.

That brings a whole host of other questions and decisions - where to store my stuff, where will I land ultimately, and most importantly, what will happen to my 2 beautiful cats? This last question is the one I am most concerned about. I need to find a safe, loving place for them - possibly as fosters, probably as a permanent home. It breaks my heart to do it, but I really think it will be best for them - they deserve stability in their lives. And yeah, I think this issue is most likely the one that has me up all night tonight - they can tell I am upset, as they've been laying on me in bed more than they usually do (usually they lay next to me, not ON me).

So 2011 is off to a bang-up start, and it isn't even here yet! This is the first time I have had work coming in in January, and it feels like the beginning of some amazing journeys.

Here's to the next leap! :)